kind of boring recently~dun reli knw wat m i thinking inside me,jz feel it's so nt me!
mayb it's d matter of being 2 free,i hv d opportunity 2 think deep...
2deep til im nt able 2 climb up again~
tot bout future,relationship,frens,family,dreams,everythg...
wondering wat wil it b 2mr...
wil it b a better 1 o der is a possibility of nt having a 2mr?
recently im reli afraid of death...
dun knw y...
i knw tat's part n parcel of life,bt sdnly i dun hv d guts 2 face it lately...
saw2 many deaths in natural disasters,daily news reports...
jz over 21st b'day,yet my life is jz begin,i hvnt done enuf,many thgs i hvnt experience...
so i try hard2 protect myself...
fr harm n make myself s safe s possible~
future is such an unknown 4 me
studying a course whc was my 6th choice,i reli cant c d route in front of me...
recent bad results make me wonder: m i qualified enuf 2 b in uni n taking tis course?
frens r seem 2 b tools 2 bcm companion recently...
cant find a soul mate...
socalled best frenship is seemed so unreal 4 me recently...
cz they even dun knw wat hpn 2 me lately,n im 2 reluctant 2 tell them how i feel...
y sdnly tis drastic change?
i dun knw...
relationship is d worst 1...
i dun even knw wat's my real feelings...
a single words o sentence,a single odd action will make me misund...
wondering m i reli fall 4 him?
o jz 'use' him 2 fulfill d want of being care n loved?
i dun knw...
i reli dun knw...
